Title: Goodbye
Post by: Bastard Poetry on April 02, 2009, 04:35:01 am
Post by: Bastard Poetry on April 02, 2009, 04:35:01 am
Believe it or not, I've only been on the internet for approximately two years. Most of my adult life has been spent in books, music and work, and I'm beginning to realize that my recent addiction to the internet is holding me back from accomplishing a lot of my goals--career, academic, literary and social. I don't think that making the online friends I've made, or creating the entertainment I've shared, has been a mistake, by any stretch, and I certainly don't intend to disappear forever. However, I've been battling some severe health issues for the last 7-8 years, and I presently find myself dealing with many of the issues I had neglected to face in all that time. Things are at their worst now, and every aspect of my life is falling apart in the periphery--financial issues and etcetera.
After giving it long consideration, I have come to the conclusion that my own apathy--my exceedingly exhausted and battered will--has, at worst, caused a lot of my problems and, at best, enhanced them further. I find myself desperate to count the ticks on the classroom clock or the digital blinks of the timecard machine at work, so I can rush home as quickly as possible to log onto various forums and find trivial things to focus on, just so I don't have to focus on my real problems. In all fairness, it isn't really the internet that's the problem. If I didn't have forums and an online social network to lose myself in at the end of the day, I'd find something else to occupy my attention with--something that doesn't require true risk or conviction.. like video games. Except that, on both accounts, I can't simply enjoy these things on a casual basis; I become obsessive, as a way to secure myself from various harms. My wife has even, on occasion, pointed out that I don't just zone out to a glowing screen; I disappear entirely.
I have made a turning point in my life recently, and I am resolved to climb out of this rut and succeed in my aspirations. To do this, I need to put away the distractions I regularly lose myself in and focus on reclaiming my principles. So, I am taking a leave of absence from the forums.
I will remain in contact with Cheetah, through email, so we can continue our work on Part II of the Chronicles. The story we're developing is slowly turning into something phenomenal (the plotlines I've dreamt up for Parts IV-VI, when we someday get to them, are beginning to rival the plotlines of various novels that I've read, or intend to write). And all of you know how important this project is to me, personally. It definitely falls into my "literary goals" category these days.
I will certainly return when we finish it; though it won't be with Part II only. I have a few other projects I'm developing on the side.
My best hope is that the next few months will be productive, in every way.
Take care, everyone.
After giving it long consideration, I have come to the conclusion that my own apathy--my exceedingly exhausted and battered will--has, at worst, caused a lot of my problems and, at best, enhanced them further. I find myself desperate to count the ticks on the classroom clock or the digital blinks of the timecard machine at work, so I can rush home as quickly as possible to log onto various forums and find trivial things to focus on, just so I don't have to focus on my real problems. In all fairness, it isn't really the internet that's the problem. If I didn't have forums and an online social network to lose myself in at the end of the day, I'd find something else to occupy my attention with--something that doesn't require true risk or conviction.. like video games. Except that, on both accounts, I can't simply enjoy these things on a casual basis; I become obsessive, as a way to secure myself from various harms. My wife has even, on occasion, pointed out that I don't just zone out to a glowing screen; I disappear entirely.
I have made a turning point in my life recently, and I am resolved to climb out of this rut and succeed in my aspirations. To do this, I need to put away the distractions I regularly lose myself in and focus on reclaiming my principles. So, I am taking a leave of absence from the forums.
I will remain in contact with Cheetah, through email, so we can continue our work on Part II of the Chronicles. The story we're developing is slowly turning into something phenomenal (the plotlines I've dreamt up for Parts IV-VI, when we someday get to them, are beginning to rival the plotlines of various novels that I've read, or intend to write). And all of you know how important this project is to me, personally. It definitely falls into my "literary goals" category these days.
I will certainly return when we finish it; though it won't be with Part II only. I have a few other projects I'm developing on the side.
My best hope is that the next few months will be productive, in every way.
Take care, everyone.
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Post by: Asmo X on April 02, 2009, 06:07:30 am
Post by: Asmo X on April 02, 2009, 06:07:30 am
Are we talking severe health issues on the level of Rain4h?
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Post by: philsov on April 02, 2009, 09:35:06 am
Post by: philsov on April 02, 2009, 09:35:06 am
later brother bp.
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Post by: Piercewise on April 02, 2009, 10:53:11 am
Post by: Piercewise on April 02, 2009, 10:53:11 am
Moving words, my friend, and a worthwhile goal. Take care of yourself and pursue your ambitions. The internet won't be going anywhere.
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Post by: DarthPaul on April 02, 2009, 01:26:55 pm
Post by: DarthPaul on April 02, 2009, 01:26:55 pm
That is a very noble decision BP. I hope you find the answer to your problems in a way we can not provide you.
God speed to you in your exploits and hopefully you will have some good stores to share with us when you return.
God speed to you in your exploits and hopefully you will have some good stores to share with us when you return.
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Post by: akwikone on April 02, 2009, 01:42:59 pm
Post by: akwikone on April 02, 2009, 01:42:59 pm
I miss him alllready, see you man, good luck, live long and prosper, shazba nanoo nanoo
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Post by: Kaijyuu on April 02, 2009, 02:17:43 pm
Post by: Kaijyuu on April 02, 2009, 02:17:43 pm
Good luck to you.
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Post by: Kuraudo Sutoraifu on April 02, 2009, 02:46:08 pm
Post by: Kuraudo Sutoraifu on April 02, 2009, 02:46:08 pm
Goodbye, Bastard Poetry. It's always a somber day when one of the internet's finer constituants leaves. Bastard Poetry always had well thought out posts, always peppered by humor and wit. But he leaves us for far greater things. He seeks the lands named "Responsibility" and "Fruitful Life". I have seen these promised lands, and they are good. They are places where if you really want something, you must earn it. I know the concept of earning something is highly foreign to our series of tubes but allow me to explain. Earning is actually working to get what one recieves such as paying for music or going to the library tofind information instead of googling it. But this does not only apply the productive things in life also the decadent. Pornography is no longer a few clicks away, and the convenient comfort of 4chan being able to pickpocket your soul would indeed take effort. The Anonymous does not exist in these lands, and as such, actions and words actually have consequences. You cannot simply tell someone to "Go eat themselves!" without bearing with the consequences. These consequences are how one can earn thier flippancy in these lands.
Bastard Poetry, I applaud you, sir. Blaze the path so that others may follow, as I indeed will again someday.
/overkill
Bastard Poetry, I applaud you, sir. Blaze the path so that others may follow, as I indeed will again someday.
/overkill
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Post by: LastingDawn on April 02, 2009, 02:49:53 pm
Post by: LastingDawn on April 02, 2009, 02:49:53 pm
Ah, Bastard Poetry, it has been wonderful to know you for as long as I have. As has been mentioned your decision is sound and it is true that these things take up a ton of time to make work. At times I regret undertaking such a large project as Mercenaries and daily wonder if I can ever really finish it...
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Post by: Kokojo on April 02, 2009, 03:53:07 pm
Post by: Kokojo on April 02, 2009, 03:53:07 pm
I do hope this is a late April Fools...
Il dearly miss you BP.
Il dearly miss you BP.
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Post by: Asmo X on April 02, 2009, 08:26:37 pm
Post by: Asmo X on April 02, 2009, 08:26:37 pm
This is literally the gayest thread ever seen on the internet
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Post by: Kaijyuu on April 02, 2009, 08:33:52 pm
Post by: Kaijyuu on April 02, 2009, 08:33:52 pm
I bet you like it that way.
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Post by: Zozma on April 02, 2009, 08:34:46 pm
Post by: Zozma on April 02, 2009, 08:34:46 pm
BP you're right i've come to a similar conclusion myself and have been spending less time on the internet lately. I think even tho i have come back from myIRL issues, from now on i will also be working towards more productive IRL situations. but i definately plan to get my first Remix beta out as soon as possible
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Post by: Cheetah on April 02, 2009, 08:45:35 pm
Post by: Cheetah on April 02, 2009, 08:45:35 pm
It sounds like you are making the right choice for you and that is what is important. Well that and the fact that the COK yet lives.
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Post by: Archael on April 02, 2009, 09:39:46 pm
Post by: Archael on April 02, 2009, 09:39:46 pm
troll thread
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Post by: SentinalBlade on April 02, 2009, 10:55:28 pm
Post by: SentinalBlade on April 02, 2009, 10:55:28 pm
Troll or not arch, im not gonna miss take the opportunity; if it is true, then itl be awhile before he talks again 
Thanks BP, for the countless hours of humor and fanciful wit. Your actually what alot of people should aspire to be. Intelligent but knowing when/how to use it. I myself have actually looked up to your manner of posting, And if anything its made my responses more legible and less full of shit. School os hard when you juggle as many things as you do, and as long as your not completely deterring yourself from CoK, i see no problem with freeing yourself of distractions.
In the time ive known you, BP, you have affected this forum in a very positive way(outside the spam forum), and you deserve credit for helping make what it is today.
As do you, Voldemort. Your publicity on gamefaqs attracted alot of attention to FFH, thanks for all the fruitful members we've had join due to the 1.3 patch.
Thanks BP, for the countless hours of humor and fanciful wit. Your actually what alot of people should aspire to be. Intelligent but knowing when/how to use it. I myself have actually looked up to your manner of posting, And if anything its made my responses more legible and less full of shit. School os hard when you juggle as many things as you do, and as long as your not completely deterring yourself from CoK, i see no problem with freeing yourself of distractions.
In the time ive known you, BP, you have affected this forum in a very positive way(outside the spam forum), and you deserve credit for helping make what it is today.
As do you, Voldemort. Your publicity on gamefaqs attracted alot of attention to FFH, thanks for all the fruitful members we've had join due to the 1.3 patch.
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Post by: Smitson on April 03, 2009, 03:22:10 am
Post by: Smitson on April 03, 2009, 03:22:10 am
Quote from: "SentinalBlade"Troll or not arch, im not gonna miss take the opportunity; if it is true, then itl be awhile before he talks again
Thanks BP, for the countless hours of humor and fanciful wit. Your actually what alot of people should aspire to be. Intelligent but knowing when/how to use it. I myself have actually looked up to your manner of posting, And if anything its made my responses more legible and less full of shit. School os hard when you juggle as many things as you do, and as long as your not completely deterring yourself from CoK, i see no problem with freeing yourself of distractions.
In the time ive known you, BP, you have affected this forum in a very positive way(outside the spam forum), and you deserve credit for helping make what it is today.
As do you, Voldemort. Your publicity on gamefaqs attracted alot of attention to FFH, thanks for all the fruitful members we've had join due to the 1.3 patch.
I'm in that list!
Take care Bastard, and remember: Kanbabrif is with you
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Post by: tithin on April 03, 2009, 04:50:21 am
Post by: tithin on April 03, 2009, 04:50:21 am
I respect your decision, BP.
May I one day have the testicular fortitude to match it.
May I one day have the testicular fortitude to match it.
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Post by: Archael on April 04, 2009, 01:32:02 am
Post by: Archael on April 04, 2009, 01:32:02 am
QuoteI've only been on the internet for approximately two years
this makes a lot of sense considering how seriously you took some internet issues which were only internet issues
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Post by: Zalge on April 14, 2009, 10:07:02 pm
Post by: Zalge on April 14, 2009, 10:07:02 pm
Maybe he'll be back one day. Ya know? But, until then, we'll all miss you.
I'm actually taking the advice he game me a while ago. I'm going to be using the event and text editors to abridge FFT for the hell of it. I'll probably start re-writing the script soon and be ready by summer.
Anyway, Later BP.
Too bad you ain't goin' no where. Cause everything you gave and taught us is staying right with us. (Sorry, its kind of a Yu-Gi-Oh reference)
I'm actually taking the advice he game me a while ago. I'm going to be using the event and text editors to abridge FFT for the hell of it. I'll probably start re-writing the script soon and be ready by summer.
Anyway, Later BP.
Too bad you ain't goin' no where. Cause everything you gave and taught us is staying right with us. (Sorry, its kind of a Yu-Gi-Oh reference)
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Post by: Goomba on April 14, 2009, 10:52:55 pm
Post by: Goomba on April 14, 2009, 10:52:55 pm
Yeah! It's great that you're going to take control of your life. I'm sure that you'll become more powerful.